Taking stock 2012

When the years draw to an end, we begin to reflect upon all the times that defined that year. All the glorious moments, the little failures, achievements, and non-achievements. We also think about what we want to do afresh in the coming year and all those kind of stuff.  When I look back and think of all these, I couldn't help but also remember all the names that made a difference in my life in 2012 and the beautiful faces behind those names.

I lost myself and found myself this year…at some point, I was living the life of my dreams and then all of a sudden I found myself living another girl’s dream. The adventurous and proactive girl got lost at some point, the procrastinator in me took over then again I found myself. This is the bit and piece I could pull together.

#Best moments:

My last months in India were the most amazing part of the year. As much as I missed home and family, I definitely created and lived some incredible memories that I will never forget.

Travel

Europe was not on my card this year but I made it to 3 countries in the EU while there. After all the wahala I gave them at the Singaporean Embassy in India, those people would be mad to realize I did not visit their country.

Dubai, UAE

Munich, Germany

Brugge, Belgium

Faith

In this department, I was a mess. A really big one. There was just no connection. I found myself praying out of duty, not because I wanted to. I pulled away from God; I was asking too much question which got no answer. I was on the verge of becoming a deitist. Please no judgments here, we all have our right to our beliefs. Now am crawling back to Islam, thanks to some friends. You can only understand if you have been there.

Family

I have a 'very interesting' family, both the nuclear and extended one. My sisters are both grown now, the immediate sister graduated from the university and lil’ sister could pass for a 15-year-old even though she is “12 going on 13”. My extended families were busy springing a lot of surprises but I have learned we all are different even though we share blood.

Friendship

I read a tweet once saying “how someone you have never met could make your year” and then I remember I have not met any of you and I share a special bond with you all. I would love to thank you all for the special virtual friendship we all share. As for physical friends, I was a good friend to some and terribly different to others. Some friendships were rekindled, awesome new friendships made and some friendships relegated.

Finance

Finances weren’t terrible but I could have done better. Seriously done better, I guess that is why we have a new year to make things right.

Health and Fitness

This year I added some serious weight that my mother who has always called me chicken when others tell me I have gone fat looked at me and said, madam, you had better watch it. Asides the big belly, I really do not have issues with the extra meat on my body. Any exercise I would be doing in the New Year would be to keep fit and not necessarily lose weight. Even my flat ass is now showing, so why would I give that up.

The discovery of the cysts and subsequent surgery has made me so health-conscious that now, I am calling up the doctor for any small symptom.

I am not forgetting my big hair chop.

The year is not ending the way I wanted or planned it to, but then again I am grateful for life and the opportunity for a beautiful tomorrow. Thank you all very much for an eventful year and looking forward to a blissful and prosperous 2013

♥ Lara

The Second Wife

“Would any of you consider becoming a second wife”, asked Sister Zainab to the group of Muslim sisters gathered around in the Unilag Mosque during the end of semester Dawah camp. We all grumbled a resounding No.

Okay, she said and asked another question, “Would any of you allow your husband to marry a second wife”. To this question, a few mumbled yes, some twisted their eyes and rest, including I said No.

Sister Zainab, went on to talk about how polygamy is accepted in Islam, how it is not a sin if we decide to be second wives, how it is a sin to refuse our future husbands from marrying a second wife if we happen to be the first wives.

While reading, Dr. Ahmed’s In the Land of Invisible Women, I get to know that in Saudi Arabia and contrary to what is practiced in our side of the world. The Muslim man actually has to seek permission of (in most cases, inform) the first wife before taking a second wife. She has to accept this proposal and can file for divorce if her husband goes ahead to marry another woman without her acceptance/ consent. I can't say categorically if above statement accurately depicts the Saudi marriage tradition.

My mum and Aisha just returned from Ilorin after the attending my step-sister’s 5 days wedding celebration. The wedding according to reports was beautiful and spectacular, only problem is she got married to a 51yrs old married man, whose first child happens to be the bride’s age mate.

Mum came back with stories of how everyone was disappointed by the step-sister’s decision to get married to a married man, an old one at that. She is young, had a boyfriend who she dumped for the married man. Her mother fought and harassed the man everywhere they met, even as far as Saudi Arabia. The step mother was the one who informed the man’s wife of the relationship, informing the woman to help her beg the husband to leave her daughter alone. She went to a lot of “alfas”, went for prayer sessions in churches and only gave up when the man categorically told her that, if the step-sister does not marry him, she will never marry any other man. Unfortunately the Step-father is late and everyone says that is the only man the step-sister ever listens to.

Everyone who attended the wedding actually commended the first wife for her acceptance of the marriage, she actually had to give a vote of thanks and a day was set aside where she would come dancing to the bride’s family, thanking them for giving their daughter’s hand in marriage to her husband.

The step-sister is a very independent girl who according to mum does not want to be tied down by any man. She is content with having her husband around for just 2 days at most 3days. Also she is not ready to suffer with any man who might in the future also marry another wife. She is 26, already performed the Hajj, has a thriving business of her own and in my opinion only interested in marriage to fulfil all righteousness and have babies.

The thing is I come from a long family of polygamy; polygamy is not strange or out of the ordinary for me. My siblings, cousins and I all have step-mother/fathers and half-sister/brothers. It was a common norm in the past generations. I look at families like the “Abiolas” and the “Okoyas” and wonder what the whole brouhaha is about polygamy. We look at these women and some of us admire their courage and some disgusted by their action which we see as destabilizing what is assumed to be a perfect home.

The hypocrisy of our time is that, some of these women who are actually second wives, who have been responsible for destabilizing some homes now come out to condemn the act. They do not want their daughters to experience the same suffering which they have put another woman through. They are the same one who will condemn another woman for stealing their daughter’s husband forgetting they did the same themselves.

I know Christianity does not allow this and I find it appalling when Christians pull the “my tradition allows me to marry more than 1 wife card”. For the Muslims, I just wish our men would be true to themselves and know that they can never be fair and treat the women the same way.

To the step-sister, I can only wish her a happy married life. Even though I can’t help but wonder if her brain is screwed to the right place. As to the question, can I become a second wife...it would be hypocritical of me to say it is ruled out, but my answer is still a resounding No.

♥  Lara